Bittersweet memories ... NRR

**DillyDally** · 23-02-2012, 12:29pm

I am in the process of arranging to have a tape (cassette

) transferred to CD. It's been on my 'to do' list for ages, and I couldn't work out why I was procrastinating about it!

It's a tape of Women's Hour, which broadcast an interview Dea Birkett did with me and some other parents, about finding out your child has a disability. It was done about 18 years ago, and I've not listened to it since then.

I found a tape player, and have just played it - and have been

I sound so incredibly positive, and I'm talking about such a painful memory - I am upset and proud of myself at the same time

And that must have been why I'd been putting it off

Oh, and I sound so 'posh'

**helpimfalling** · 23-02-2012, 12:35pm

Oh my gosh I hope it don't sound like a sound like on tape lol every year while filming at Xmas I refuse to talk lol

It's hard to look back on old memories sometimes but I think you should be proud from what I've read your quiet a (searching for word) (don't want to make your head grow to big) lol xx

**DillyDally** · 23-02-2012, 12:38pm

Originally Posted by helpimfalling

Oh my gosh I hope it don't sound like a sound like on tape lol every year while filming at Xmas I refuse to talk lol

It's hard to look back on old memories sometimes but I think you should be proud from what I've read your quiet a (searching for word) (don't want to make your head grow to big) lol xx

I was a bit hesitant about hearing my voice, but actually, that was fine! I was interviewed on TV (talking about the same thing) and I just can't watch it

it makes me cringe.

I'm quite a what??!

**Peridot** · 23-02-2012, 12:56pm

Oh dilly I'd be the same - what a journey you've been on and 18 years ago a journey you weren't quite sure the direction of.
i am ridiculously hormonal at the moment so just your post has made me well up - but I hope you can listen to yourself 18 years ago and see you have lived up to your expectation and be damn proud of yourself

**DillyDally** · 23-02-2012, 01:07pm

Sorry to make you cry, too, Peri

**Peridot** · 23-02-2012, 01:13pm

Don't be sorry - I'm crying at adverts at the moment

i just thinkit must be strange listening to yourself at the beginning of the journey - wish I'd have kept a diary actually..
i always think you sound totally upbeat and focused on what matters

**DillyDally** · 23-02-2012, 01:17pm

I can remember that - crying at the news, too

It's not to late for you to start a diary/blog

I haven't, but I have these little snippets of myself, back when DS1 was little, to look at

A woman I know kept diaries, and then turned them into a book.

**helpimfalling** · 23-02-2012, 08:38pm

Lovely woman ta da I completed the sentence!

**DillyDally** · 24-02-2012, 08:54am

Originally Posted by helpimfalling

Lovely woman ta da I completed the sentence!

Aw, thanks

**joanne62** · 24-02-2012, 09:49am

I wish I'd kept a diary from when DS was small, when I look back I can't believe how positive I was and how much I took it all in my stride (though not without occasional wobbles)
It must be lovely to listen to the tapes DD.