Had a stretch and sweep at 40+4 on the Friday, the midwife had written in my notes I was 2-3cm, waters could be broken and she didn’t think it would be long. Lost a few bits of show but that was largely it. Booked in to see the doctor on Monday to arrange a C sect for a last resort.

Appointment on Monday came and went, was rather disheartened but pleased there was an end in sight. However, early hours of tues at 4am I woke with a mild pain after having shows all over the weekend. DH alarm kept going off (snooze!) and they were synchronising with the alarm. They were not hurting and I was in two minds whether to send him to work. I went to the loo and blew my nose and thought my waters had broke so told him to stay home.

Contractions were every 8 mins lasting around 40 seconds and not too painful. PIL came to get the girls at 7am as My mother had informed me I was a 3hr labour and I was expecting the same!! (big mistake!)

Went to the hospital at 12ish, even though contractions hadn’t changed because wanted to check the waters. She informed me I was 1cm dilated?!? And waters were still intact. I went home and cried and cried. I tried to nap but the “contractions” were really painful. We decided to go to PIL to see the girls and in the car, around 5pm they were coming every 6 mins. About 7 I decided to leave as was starting to really bother me.

We went home and had some dinner, contractions still every 5 mins and about 1 min long but by god they hurt!

Managed to cope at home til about 11pm, then I was "mooing" as I said to DH, think we better go in to hosp. Arrived about 2am, examined...was dreading being told I was 2cm and go home. Thank god I was 5cm, MW put me in the bath with gas and air She was fab. Stayed in as long as I could bear then came out with tens and tried to stay mobile as contractions never got closer. I rembered thinking, should have him by 8am then all being well. At about 4am I was in agony and screamed for pethadine. This really helped with the pain along with the gas and air.

Contractions never did come really close together, but the MWs changed over and I remember shouting I need to push and she said I could...THANK GOD! My waters were still intact and the midwives kept saying they were standing out the way so they didn’t get splattered. Pushing the waters and him was I said to my mum I dont know why they didnt burst them for me? as they were worried about getting soaked! I kept drinking loads in between contractions (and sleeping due to pethadine!) they made me try to wee and OMG! I screamed the place down, nothing would come so they put a catheter in and next thing I know I could feel the ring of fire! Him coming out was like being split in half and even delivering the placenta was

He was born in the bag, all 9lb 13oz of him at 6.22am on 9th June.

Then the fun started...apparently I was just pouring with blood. They were trying to establish where it was coming from, next thing I know injections galore, stitches, people filching around...I was very distressed, could see the jug of my blood on the side and kept asking if I was going to die. Saw DH do his anxious face and felt very nervous. They decided to take me to theatre and gave me a spinal to stitch up.

Had a Primary Post Partum Haemorrage due to a complex vaginal wall tear. I lost 2 litres of blood and I was quite scared, I could feel myself slipping away (I was exhausted, could have been that!) I kept thinking I want to sleep but I daren’t cause I don’t know if I will wake again. All I could do was picture happy times with my gorgeous girls.

Anyway, lived to tell the tale. Definitely NO MORE babies in the Deeley household! Still feel better than recovery after a section even though the stiches are a little sore!

And my god, arent the NHS fab? my MW came after her shift to appologize for putting a cannula in?! as it wasnt what I wanted! I said I knew it wasnt needed and never would have argued but she said she was sorry that they had to go against my wishes!
The lady who stitched me also came to appologize for causing me so much pain! bless her, I understood they acted in my interest.
Welldone if you read all that!